Things I don't really want everyone to read about

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

What The Fuck

I just got hit on by my married coworker who has a nine year old son.
What really sucks is that, under different circumstances, I wouldn't mind going home with him at all. Those circumstances of course being him not being married and me not living with my boyfriend. Him having a kid isn't big on my fun-times list either.
I do like him though. He's one of the few friends I have at work, and I feel like I can be myself around him. Which probably didn't help matters much, now that I think about it.
Today we all left work early, since it's Christmas Eve. He and I went out to have a drink, like ya do. After hanging out there for a while, we went to a park that he told me I should see, since it's all historical and shit. I still haven't gone out and explored this city very much, so knowing about a nice park wouldn't be a bad thing. We wandered around the park and got wished Merry Christmas by some hobos, it was fun. Then he told me that there were some shops that I would like close by, so we went over there too. It was kind of a spontaneous day. After we got over there, I had to pee again, because I'm a girl like that. So I ducked into a bar and took care of business. When I came out there was a pool table right there, so we stopped to play a game. I'm always up for a game of pool. After I lost, we wandered up to a store full of weird ass antiques. There was all sorts of weird shit it there, so it was really fun.
Then we went back to his car and he drove me back to my car at the park. And that's when the Awkward Fairy came and visited us. It went something like this:
Me: I had fun. Thanks for showing me these places.
Him: It was a good day.
Me: Yes, good times.
Him: So, would I completely ruin it by asking...(awkward silence)
Me: Asking what? (slightly panicked)
Him: Do you want...to go...with me...?
Me: Go where with you? (more panicked)
Him: (awkward silence) Yeah, um...I did ruin it huh?
Me: (Even more awkward silence) I wouldn't say ruined, I just...I need to go home.

Then he talked about "sensing a connection" or some such bullshit, and how he was embarrassed. I wasn't really paying attention at that point. But then he said "can I at least get a kiss?" and my attention snapped back. I told him he could have a hug. Because I'm really not that big of a bitch when it comes down to it.
I just really don't understand what happened. Really. I kinda want to talk to him about it, to find out what he was thinking. But at the same time that would be The Awkwardest Thing Ever.